Maybe I’m just being too serious about stuff, but have you ever had those moments where you reflect on your gaming hobby and wonder if you’re wasting your time and possibly whole swaths of your life?
I had a few gaming-related projects lately that could have turned out really cool and that frankly I think would have been perfect for, but in the last two weeks every single one of them has been summarily declined. I suppose I’m having a pity party, but .. what am I doing with my life? I mean, I do other things aside from games but I also spend quite a bit of time reading about games, playing games, writing blog posts and making podcasts about games, and of course gently guiding a Gaming Community.
And so what? Writing 700 words on why I liked attunements is pretty useless and overindulgent in the larger picture of things. I’m not going to have an effect on the “gaming community”, whatever the hell that means now, much less find a cure for cancer or something. At best I occasionally write things that might make someone stop and think about social issues, but my readership is generally already aware of this stuff. I’m preachin’ to the choir. I just drop blog posts into the well 3 times a week and try to not think about it too much.
I dunno, folks. I’m not a pundit or someone who has the slightest idea what the game industry is really like. I’m just an old broad who plays a lot of video games. I’m sure I’ll get over it, but today deciding to maintain the hobby that I do in the way that I do seems pretty stupid.