Right now — well, at least until I post this — what only my officers and a couple of guildies know is that March is my vacation month. For the first time ever the Cats are pretty much totally caught up on content, we don’t have any desperate recruitment needs, and things are pretty copacetic. A couple of my closest friends recommended that I use this opportunity to finally take a little “time off” from leading the guild, and after much soul searching I decided that it was a good idea. No policy making, raid organizing, mediation, raid leading, or feeling obligated to log on for one solid month.
Fortunately, I have a great group of officers and an absolutely kickass raid leader, and they were more than willing to pick up any slack that I created. For the most part my notorious control freak nature has been pretty good about letting them do that, too. Policy making, raid organizing.. these things were a lot easier to give up than I anticipated. I still deal with things that show up in my Private Message box, mostly because “I’m sorry, I’m in the Warcraft Bahamas” seems like a crappy response. Oh, and I ended up leading the Sarth 3D raids, but only because I’m bossy as hell when it comes to exciting new encounters.
Generally letting go of many of the things that I’ve been micromanaging for years has been simpler than I expected. The tough part was something I didn’t expect, though: irrational jealousy. Along with my decrease in guild responsibility has been a decrease in the amount I play and the amount I raid. I’ve been masquerading as a casual this month, running heroics and getting silly achievements over most opportunities to do the hardcore 10-mans. And it’s been great! I haven’t regretted it, except…
On Friday night I basically stayed offline from WoW to work on my other hobby, my personal website. It felt really good to spend some time on it. Meanwhile, a guild group spontaneously formed and completed A Poke In The Eye.
On Saturday I was on quite a bit, but chose to just run a heroic, grind rep and gold, and finish up a few simple achievements that have been nagging at me. Meanwhile, a guild group spontaneously formed and finally got Shocking! while almost completing The Undying.
Do I regret how I spent my time? No! Do I resent my guildies for kicking some booty without me? Certainly not! I’m proud as all get out about our great team. And yet.. there’s that little voice. “You’re falling behind. You’re missing out.” Shut up, voice! I’m happy on vacation for a month! I’m happy that I can take this opportunity to prevent burnout and just muck around without much responsibility!
Really.. I’m.. um.. wait.. um.. what are you guys planning for next weekend? Sarth-10 3D? Hmmm…
If you’ve ever wondered what I or many other guild leaders are thinking about during a raid or while making up a roster, read this post over at Fel Fire. It is a near perfect description.